had I known what was coming -- I don't know, my only regretted prayer is-- if only the Russians had sent us to Siberia, if only President Klements had not intervened and had us sent West, Siberia would have been better, easier and kinder than England. .. and I bow my head and beg God to give me strength to live through it. I cannot go to Confessions as I cannot forgive, so I cannot say that I can forgive Human Research for singling us out, for ''special treatment''..you are so vulnerable, so easy to pretend issues on.